I was not at all experienced when I first cared for a family whose baby had died.
I can remember crying my eyes out in the middle of labour ward because it was just too painful. Luckily, I had an amazing manager who gave me continuity with the family in question and I was able to follow them for 3 days worth of shifts. Their little boy had been stillborn after a complicated labour.
'I was suspended and investigated for taking a woman on my caseload home and letting her live with me and claim asylum. It’s a long and terrible story, and it was an awful 3 months whilst awaiting hearings and being threatened with NMC referral, but I won the case with the help of friends...'
Did you know I'm the middle of the final edit for my midwifery novel?
I'm beyond excited about it of course. But in a way, I don't want to finish the work and leave this world I'm living in. My early morning writing sessions hanging out with my main character, Chloe the student midwife, are the best thing about life at the moment.
It might be contradictory for a midwifery blogger, but I have concerns about the online world.
It's easy to forget how recent it all is. Imagine you're a village midwife in the 1800s, regulated by the church and unconnected to the knowledge of others. Enter MatExp the Facebook group - what would those midwives have thought of it? It's mind-blowing how far we've come.
I'll be honest - writing my second midwifery novel isn't going well today. But instead of having a self-induced meltdown, I'm sat here writing this with a liquorice, fennel, thyme and orange peel blend tea. This has been inspired by today's interview with independent midwife Joy Horner (and replaces my 'rocket fuel' coffee that I usually have, so is a bigger deal than it might sound). It helps no end to realise there are wise women like Joy out there. I bet you'll find her just as uplifting as I do.(more…)