I realised COVID-19 was going to be a problem on the 13th May. Since then, I've been manic.
When I work from home, my standard day is demanding but quiet. I do long hours but run off habit, writing and work scheduled around making coffee, doing the washing, exercise, meditation, and social media.
But it's been a wild rush to get my community up to demand, drive supplies to my parents, and I've had my phone on speaker while replying to emails or cooking (egg fried rice 3 days running), often talking with pregnant family or friends about what the hell they should do.
The problem is, I don't get to think about any single concept for more than a few minutes.
It's like I've got ten different songs in my head playing all at once.
I've done 30 minutes of kettlebells a day (I would be intolerable otherwise) but apart from that I've been parked in front of my computer or in the car.
When my brain gives up, I watch Netflix with my mouth open.
No way to live.
But this morning my fingers were stuck to my keyboard from the moment I started writing. It feels good to sit down and debrief. I need the immersion into energised focus, full attention and involvement.
I know many of us are in survival mode right now.
But living in a fight or flight world means creativity shuts off and that's not good for you.
I really like the researcher Pennebaker, who looks into the effects of therapeutic journalling. One study showed participants who did 4 x sessions of 15 minutes writing about a traumatic event had wildly different (better) outcomes a year later.
This is do-able and is a great self help strategy for all of this.
It'll help you make sense of what's happening and we might well need your reflections later, as we try to remember the challenges.
In anaesthetics, when they set up an epidural, the drugs are injected into a 'potential space' between the layers of the dura mater. It opens up as it's needed.
If you can find the potential space, write about what's happened.
Do what you can,
p.s. You might know I've run a big midwifery Facebook community for many years. As you can imagine, demands for the group have increased.
I'm running a crowdfunding mission as it's highly likely I'll be back in practice soon and I need to pay for a moderator. I'd appreciate you lending a hand to keep it running. Click here and watch the 2 minute video to find out more.